I think you know how much I can empathize with this journal, David. Like you said to me, Satan will keep you from serving Jehovah any way he can. You just want to be able to get away from it all and keep yourself from being hurt, but unfortunately, Satan will attack no matter what. You told me to take comfort in the friends and keep putting Jehovah first - no one has ever regretted doing that and you won't either. It's hard to see sometimes, like I said to you, but you were right, Jehovah is the provider of escape and he'll always be our tower. :) Call me if you need to talk. I'll see you at the meeting tonight!