sarah i barely know you and i would cry at your funeral. you are an awesome person! don't ever stop putting other people before you. it is so rare a quality. i've been in situations where i'm thinking NOW-now would be the perfect time for someone to repay the kindness i've always shown them. and i got...nothing. it's not fun at all, but hey no one is perfect. my new expectation: expect nothing. you'll either get what you expected or be very pleasantly suprised. =)