Emo Thread

This probably would be a journal if we had access to them and i would just disable replies. I gotta vent somehow and eZabel is always there for me, lol. Im just gonna start typing and hit post without really re reading...

I've worked at this company for around a year now. It's been great, ive loved the people here, the commute i have (under a min with traffic), and the people. I swear this job is great cause of the people. Dispite the risk of sounding gay... one of the guys here i really was cool with. He trained me my first few weeks here, helped me out with all my dumb questions, which there was plenty... always kidding around and having fun.

anyways... through alot of family emergencies and dumb choices, he was let go today...

I have never been in a position or job that i have ever felt so sick from a person moving on. You would think it was me that got fired. When we got the word that it was official, we all got up and walked the guy out... some of the guys were trying to kid around and laugh and junk... we got to the outside of the building, he shook hands and gave us all hugs goodbye and hopped in his car and left. My manager started sobbing... which made me feel weird, cause... i never know what to do in situations like that... i just stood there and looked at my feet, mumbling how evertyhing was going to be ok and he was gonna be fine... stuff that sounded hollow, even in my own ears.

My manger and his g/f (who also works here) go for a walk to stop crying, i walk back in with the guys and they are joking around and obviously trying to make light of everything... i dunno i just didnt feel like it was right.

So now i sit at my desk... phone ringing and people talking. I lost my appetite ( true it could be the pills too, but whatever) and im just thinking about stuff that happened over the past year and i dunno, i cant help feeling crappy.

But anyways... thats the deal... my emo post for the day.

Song of the Moment

Finger Eleven : One Thing