other side

I still feel the same way about her and the heaviness that she brings into the room with her. I try and try and try and she just runs me down into the ground. All she does is complain and complain. It's hard to get even a smile out of her. Why des everything have to be so serious with her? I feel so...outside. I don't feel happy with her anymore. She is driving me crazy! I dont know what to even think about doing. She's like water being constanly poured on a fire. This si making me sick and unhappy, i don't know why. I'm very very anoyed b how she's acting. What am i askin from her but that she be civil towards me? Just one smile maybe. Just to try and be happy. his is driving me crazy. She is the center, not just of us, but what was of us. She's a center of calamity and destruction. She draws herself to these people that mean nothing but destruction. I don't get it. Why do I even try with her? It's more of a burden than anyhting else. I just wanted something happy between us. But where is that happiness now? When she came, I thought she was a blessing. Perhaps she was. Now, though, I see her other side.