An Unlikely Visitor

it's been a pretty long time since i wrote a journal. the past weekend was full of events. friday i had a good friend come over my house and stay over for the first time since like 4 years ago when i had my first best friend stay over. i usually stay over other people's houses cuz i think my house is boring. but i do like having company over, i just don't like when my parents act different. my dad gets all nice (like he just gave me $20 randomly) and my mom enforces the rules and tries to make me look bad (like when i didn't offer my friend anything to drink, she was like 'pete didn't offer you a drink?!'.. she twisted that and made me seem inhospitable, that's not me at all). i am usually inclined to offer help and stuff. maybe i'm a bad host, i dunno, but i'm just not used to having company over. my friend found it surprising when he asked wat did i wanna do, and i told him i dunno, and he asked well wat do you usually do on the weekends, and i was like nothing.. i just stay home lol. he was kinda surprised. then i felt extremely awkward and alienated at that moment. it only bothers me really bad once in a while. i do want to go out more often tho. i don't wish to be locked up in solid confinement. i'm afraid to drive my car long distance cuz when i'm going real fast and i press on the brakes the car shakes, so i think i need to fix the alignment, and i don't wanna get stuck somewhere - i don't even have a cell phone. anyway, my friend stayed until monday. he went with me to my special day assembly, and i introduced him to a few friends and we all got along well. i hope he had fun while he was here, cuz i did. sometimes it seemed like he was real bored, but i asked and he said he had a lot of fun over the weekend, and i was just glad to have his company. i think that just having the company of a good friend, and like, not even talking, just saying hi, watch tv, video games, sports, watever, they all count as great conversations.