Older and....wiser?
by So, as of this past Saturday, I'm 24 years young. I have officially entered my mid-20's.
Funny thing....I don't FEEL any older. I mean, physically I've felt like I was years older, ever since I had Tyler. I've been constantly tired for over 5 years now. :)
But mentally, emotionally.....I feel like I've REALLY grown over the years. Sure, all my experiences had a lot to do with that.....I've been through a lot, and it makes you wise to the ways of the world pretty quickly. But I like feeling like I have grown from one year to the next. Even from the age of 23 to 24....I came to realize some things about me, and friends of mine, that has changed my perspective, and some things about myself.
But I feel like BECAUSE of those things I've gone through, and the fact that I had to grow up so fast, I didn't go through the normal "stages of aging", as I like to call it. Like, I got to experience the independent stage of being 18 for all of a month and a half....and then it was over.
I turned 21....yes, I was legal to drink, but it was a very uneventful time for me. I mean, I could still go out and have fun, but it was also enjoyable to spend time with my son.
Then I got married at 22. Not to sound like a cheesy line from a movie, but I felt like that completed me, in a sense. No more feeling like something was missing. I now have everything I need.
Trust me, none of this is meant to sound like I regret anything. Sure, I wish there were some decisions I'd thought through a little better, but I love my life, and I wouldn't change a thing. What I went through to get here and become who I am today, has taught me so much, and made me a better person as well. I'm just reflecting a little, and rambling in the process.
But here's a question for you all.....what are some things you noticed about the passing years in your life? Turning 18...21....25....30? Did you come to certain realizations? Did you reflect on things you'd done? Did you wish you had done more?
Like I said....just rambling....and trying to feel normal. :)
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To be honest, i was going to write this journal when i turned 26 this year, but chickened out.
You can still write it. I won't think you're a copycat. :)
Heehee....Love ya Pat!!! :)
I've realized people are growing older--later, taking longer to reach maturity. It's depressing. Milestone ages almost don't apply anymore. Sometemes it's hard to motivate this generation. It takes an oppurtunity, an ultamatic, an unforseen occurance, a girl or just a ticking clock getting louder to make people move. I wish this weren't true.
I have noticed this too, especially around where I live. It's weird...you've got the kids in college...ACTING like they are in college. And not in a good way. Like, high school is over...so grow up.
Whereas, the high school kids/college kids here on Ezabel....if they didn't tell me they're age, I wouldn't be able to tell. I think it's the water here in Ohio...makes kids act weird.
But yeah....people also don't do anything lately unless it benefits them. I think it's an overall selfishness of the world, caused by lack of maturity. It's so obvious around here....man, I gotta get out of Ohio....it's wearing thin on me.
It's here too. It's everywhere.
This is definetly true, and I'll totally include myself in that though maybe not to the degree of those in the world. I think there is an over-all lack of responsibility in the world. People don't take responsibility for themselves or their actions. Or if they do, it's not until they're much older then they should be.
I just look around me and see a lot of people still acting the way they were when they were 15 and 16 but now they're 18 and 19 and it's gotten old.
what i hate is older people who do childish things. like if you have a problem with someone and they ask you, then you tell them. you don't say "naw all good" and then tear them apart behind their back. ask me. i'll tell ya when ya bug me.
Same goes for me. I HATE that....you wanna know if I have an issue? Just ask....I'll let ya know fo SHO!! :)
that happens with most at any age. so sad. not many peeps can be real
everyone at work had a problem with this one girl and she asked me and i told her and they ALL couldn't believe i told her. why lie?
you said you "don't FEEL older" but then u said "i feel physically older" and that you have "REALLY grown over the years"
So which is it? do you feel older or not?!?!?!
Yeah, she sounds kinda confused. Maybe she had a late night Yager binge.
Yeah, that does sound kinda confusing when I type it out. :)
What I meant was, physically, I feel older, because I'm tired, exhausted, and worn out all the time. I feel like I'm 24 in the body of an old woman, with all the aches and pains, hahahaha.
But what I meant by NOT feeling any older, was that by turning 24, I don't feel like there was a big difference in my growth of maturity or knowledge, (maybe a little) because I've felt at this level for a number of years. Like, a "been there done that" feeling, and 24 wasn't a huge milestone for me. No huge realizations or anything....just still the same Keirsten.
Don't get me wrong, I do think I'm more mature now than a few years ago....but not in a "WOW, I've changed" way.
Sorry if that sounds confusing. I realize my rambling might not make a bunch of sense sometimes. :)
I understood what you meant. You prolly feel that way because when you're between the ages of, I dunno, 1-20! learning is all we do but maybe that drops off as you enter the mid 20's. The pace in which you acquire knowledge and experience maybe slows down because you've learned how to live and now you're living.
i feel like having some pancakes
I'm 25 and I kinda can't wait to be 30. I don't know why. I want to be 30. haha weird i know. I think I might want to have a babbie when I'm 30. Maybe. The 20's , for me, are for having fun, discovering stuff about yourself, and trying to figure out who you really are. 30 to me is a very cool number and I can't wait to be it, haha. I'll be the 30 year old weird juicy mango.
A friend of mine is turning 30 in a couple months, she looks 22, she's awesome, she's like the coolest wife and mother EVER... and she says she'll be so depressed about turning 30. I say, who cares, age aint nothin but a number.
you know what else is a number? the number 77
yeah its a number. but its not cool dude. cmon, 20 is way cooler than 77.
Michaelangelo was 20 at one point, and you know what happened to him? HE'S DEAD!! is that what you want??
yeah i can't wait to be 77. I'll be like "where you at" beep beep
I have the same personality since I was a kid. I don't think I'll ever "grow up."
me either...lets be forever young!
forever young i want to be forever young
hey stay young and invincible...
stay gold ponyboy, stay gold
ahhh my theme song
I've gone through many changes in my life and now that i'm in my 30's (ugh that's weird to think) I can look back and am happy i went through the things that i did. i wouldn't change a thing.
To me my actual turning point was when i was 25, you feel different think different and you're pretty set as to who you are going to be as a person, but you just become more confident as the days pass.
I agree with Juicy, age ain't nuthin but a number. i still get carded, people freak when i tell them my age and I still feel as young as i did as i was 21.
The other night, my dad told me he thinks I'm exactly the same as I was when I was 12. Not that I still act young now, but that I acted older and too mature for my age then. Now I've grown into my precociousness.
move into 92
still in a room without a fuse
youve got to know youve got to know
when they say go go go
action must be taken
we don't need the key we'll break it
so rip the mic the rip the stage rip the system
i was born to rage against them
dude, wrong thread. not cool
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
theres a mass without roofs
theres a prison to fill
theres a country country soul that reads post no bills
theres a strike and line of cops outside of tha mill
theres a right to obey
and theres a right to kill
Yeah I'm 22 in 2 months party hard ezabel WOOOO!
man i love this guy
who is this bozo?
cerrato ?? you never met him? chances are he's slept over your house at some point
OH! him. he's still crashing here. he sleeps all day and refuses to tell me his name.
yeah sorry about that, you'll probably notice that your fridge has been cleared of food and beer, and you wallet is most likely empty, also the gas has been siphoned out of your car.
it def looks like kissing dans up in this journal.
you're an old man!