Bad Words

Sometimes I prefer to not communicate. In the heart-to heart sense of conversing. When I do, it seems the person on the recieving end takes my words the wrong way. Not in the way that results in me putting my foot in my mouth. It's more like I feel the intent is twisted and used against me at a later time. It's infuriating and frustrating. Certain people in your life should be so easy to talk to. Unfortunately these certain people can make it so difficult. I am always wrong.

You pour out your feelings and it backfires...you don't do this, you should have done that, it's all your own fault.

Sometimes you share because you really need to hear your thoughts aloud to reach a conclusion...only to find that the person you are talking to has now judged you to have a major deficiency as a result of your mental jibberish.

I like to pick my battles. If there isn't a need to make a big deal, don't. Many times you feel that you are being treated unjustly only to find that you needed to chill out. Your feelings get hurt from time to time. I don't feel like I need to approach the individual who did every time it happens. Sometimes I am too sensitive. Most of the time I get over it on my own and I forget about it.

I hate being dragged into things. If I am upset about something I don't want it broadcast to everyone who is around. I don't like to be the center of attention. When you are grumpy, you definitely don't want it pointed out to everyone else. I also hate family disputes, even the small ones. I usually like to remove myself from the situation. I think, "hey, I'm not part of this, I'll just let you all duke it out or whatever." For some reason, my desire to avoid all that backfires as well. I somehow manage to get dragged into the arguement in some small way as well. It stinks and I hate it.

Venting to a computer is way nice.