Better Writer Than Editor

So there's this huge blogging sensation going on right now. I don't even know why I want to enter but I do so. BLAH lol!--

I can write, I'm just the WORST at editing my own work. There are some online whatchamaHOOSies that sort of help but, not really so great.

What should I cut, keep, describe differently etc.? It's UBER RAW. I just saw the topic and then "put the pedal to the metal".

It's about whether first time experiencing *ANYTHING* is a real impact or ANY impact on certain people. My position is it can and blah blah blah blah.

First love.

First love did have a large part in shaping the person that I am now. It’s difficult loosing every last bit of oneself to someone because, ‘we’ are so certain that “they” are our safety net catching our pieces and keeping us grounded.
It is even more difficult when they drop that precious cargo, our heart, while expecting that we will be equipped to mend and salvage the remains, alone.

Loyalty, purity, innocence, make LOOSING first love that much MORE devastating.
These are for, me, the things that I thought would make that first love last, solidify it.
I never had a plan, or was engaged in some elaborate game. It was what I felt. It was real, complete, and deep.

There’s no use in rehashing the past. What’s done is done; whatever “they” think was done, to “them”, it’s over. True love cannot last without honesty and trust. The judgments and misinterpretations can stay there too, in the past. I will never fight to deserve “HIS” trust, when he had possessed MY trust and so much more, from practically the moment we met.

First love. What about it? It can be the most beautiful experience or an incredibly destructive one.