i know my definite changing point was when i became really depressed. like i was so mad at myself and the world and people around me. i seriously wanted to die. i contemplated different ways of ...

Depression seems to be more common among Jehovah's people than you think... this will shock a few, but I have dealt with it myself in the past, but not to the extent you have... thanks for the comm...

thanks. i was really nervous about whether or not i should say anything because not a lot of people know about it.

Same here... but then again, you could be anybody anywhere since your profile is a little vague... but nevertheless it takes a lot to admit the problem