Ty, I SO feel the same way.
A doctor told me once that sometimes they give terminal patients a *little extra* pain meds, which can hasten thier death. I do suspect they did that to my mom and I have no anger towards them.
yeah that's gotta be annoying, especially if your mind is still sorta functioning and you're in sooo much pain you can't even speak, and you just keep thinking "i want to die"... and wake up in a meadow
:(
i hate this system