does the word neofashionist mean anything to you? haha j/k. Sorry about the news bro. Kind of bums me out to hear stuff like this. Yeah I remember being in a few similar situations. Turns out no matter how much I tried to make sense of it all I got was more confused. Truth of the matter is that eventually something really good comes your way. It usually happens unexpectadly. First thing I notice I am talking to this cute brunette with nice long waivy hair. Then her and me are talking on the phone. For some reason I make her laugh a lot and she really likes that. You will discover someone unexpectadly too. Seriously you wont change the past so dont dwell on it. If you do that you won't see the good in front of you and that is something you don't want to miss. Anyways Peace rock steady