What are you worried that you should've done?
i feel like i should have given her more time and maybe somehow she would have pulled through
even though she seemed to get WORSE in the 2 hours from when she first collapsed to when the vet told us that she's blind and deaf and severely anemic and they don't know what caused it..... i feel like.. i should have at least tried to .. i duno.. someow give her time to .. i duno! pull through. Ifeel like it was so crazy and shocking and I just wanted her suffering to end but at the same time I wasn't thinking clearly and maybe she needed more time.
I know it's so stupid and selfish to think that way but I just can't help it I feel so guilty!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH I just really want my brain to think about something else ghhhh
Awww! It's not stupid and selfish to want more time with a pet you love. Try not to be so hard on yourself.
you know what it is too, I have been fortunate enough in life so that I haven't experienced too much loss. So it's like I don't even know how to deal with this right now and I hate it.. I'm sure in a couple of days I'll be okay but just right now it's like geeeeeeeeeezzzzz think about something else already!!!!
and I hate how my mind flashes from the first moment I saw Munchkin to the last - like it was a span of 2 seconds not 8 years
I hate it i just hate all of it
Maybe you should give yourself some time with no music, no tv, no one else, just alone, to think about your kitty and all the happy memories you have. Give yourself time, and you'll look back and smile rather than look back and cry. :)
im sorry hun!!!
and YES in a couple of days you'll be fine but the loss of a pet is horrible. dont be hard on yourself with the coulda woulda shoulda's. thats all they are. just hang in there...maybe a good cry and cookies will help ease the pain.
*HUGS*