I think this fear is natural. Its counter-intuitive for most people to want to talk to relative strangers, or at best passive associates, about potentially explosive topics. Who would naturally go to a person's door and try to share their religion with them? But I'm sure you do that (although I dont' know you). A man on my job's stepfather (but basically real father) died a year ago, and everytime I saw him he had a new story about the heartache he and his mother were going through. I was mad nervous to give him the when someone you love dies brochure. But, what I did, and what I do when I'm nervous (basically everytime) is tell people I know about my desire to witness, kind of like what you did in this journal, and then they tell me experiences they had, and that gets my courage up. I also OF COURSE say a prayer. And then I think of all the holy rollers I work with who blast gospel, have pious bumper stickers, and answer the question "how are you?" with "bathed in teh blood of Christ" and think, Hey, I have soemthing valuable, so why I'm I scared. Then I do it quickly before I lose my confidence. I gave him that brochure, and he was soo appreciative, and now he knows I'm a witness, and it comes up sometimes. I even started a study with one girl on my job, and we studied at lunch. But I REALLY was scared initially. I have to go through that almost every time. But I never regret it in the end.