Turmoil
You know when your life is COMPLETELY, unnecessarily messed up for circumstances beyond your control?? Ok, well I'm in that situation at the moment. It's been like that for a while, and it's not getting better.
I've been out of it for a while, not bothering to call people, go out, or whatever. Last night I got kinda dragged out, and I went just so I wouldn't stay home and feel sad.
So I go out, chill with some friends- we meet up with some other people, some that I know, and some I don't. One girl I kinda know, not too well but a little bit. We never talked too much- but I SWEAR something clicked. I...kind of looked into her eyes, because we were talking...and suddenly, this undescrible calm hit me. Have you ever looked at someone, and gotten the feeling you could see BEHIND their eyes? To what they were REALLY trying to say? I couldn't keep that gaze. It was too exhlirating. I had to break the hold. But every time I looked into her eyes, I had the same feeling. The world was all making sense, at that moment. Where did that feeling come from? How can I re-create this? I'm not the kind of person to base anything on hormones, I'll fight that relationships shouldn't be based on "sparks" or anything of the kind. Telling anyone I know about this is completely out of the question...to say the least. I hope I don't see this girl again anytime in the near future. I don't think my world can handle it.
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i'd go out and buy a dog. i mean everyone can use a pet dog.
so, who are you anyway?
I dont know... but i do remember this guy staring at me all weird and in a trance when were talking at dinner. i wonder if it was him.
ty have you found your soul mate? so cool man!
maybe she's an alien aiming to make you fall in love with her so she can steal your brain and use it to power her spaceship.
i had that feeling once. i think i've had it again, but the first time was the most powerful. a girl was talking to me at the lunch table, not about anything special, but something just clicked. it was like this rush forward, toward her. i almost kissed her. i'll never forget that moment. so exhilerating.
was it the food..?
hahah i hope not, cause i think i was eating ritz bitz and chocolate milk (the best combination EVAR)