to answer your first inquiry, as to, what he looks like - I've always thought he's favored the purble tellietubbie....hmm...wonder why he's having girl troubles....haha...j/k there milty...you'll find your knight in shinning armor...patience is a virtue...and, btw, i find it admirable for you to be able to lay your most vulnerable of emotions out on the table here..not everybody can be that open.