I totally see what you're saying...this is just my weird way of seeing things. I like it but no matter what, everything has it's inescapable down side.
I just feel that the word has negative conotation and I don't like it because when it passes I have to step back out of my perspective and start all over again:
"Awww you have a crush!"
"darnit!" Hahaha
saying crush sounds juvenile to you? i think there will come a time when you will get past that.
wow, I didn't say that but that's what I was thinkin. It's prolly cuz I am a juvenile haha and I have this complex. I'm always trying to prove myself and I never wanna seem like a youngin to my family. So there I am, kneeling at the feet of my mom persuading her and telling her how it could work out, in effect persuading myself..THAT'S IT! I just figured it out..perhaps I have too much faith in something before it unfolds.
youre not a juvenile, but you are in a growing/proving stage. right now, you are a lil sensitive about these issues but you will get past it. trust.