Yes, definitely a good point. Ok, so you said you could go either way: gilead or children. These two girls in the picture or not, you have to decide for youself which way you want to go. Perhaps, once you figure that out, you'll take your head out of your hands, look up, and see her. You can't make a life decision like this without knowing for sure where you want your life to go from here. Someone once admitted to me he was looking at other girls besides me. At the time, I saw his honesty. Great, thanks. But then I saw a waivering boy who didn't know what he wanted. Better to figure you out first and then act or else you run the risk of hurting people.