Reminding Me of You

Okay so I've been talking about posting this journal for about two weeks now but, it's really been a lot longer in coming. It's still a work in progress and I think it'd be fun to have it be an on-going journal I'll keep adding to, I've got a few things in mind so I hope you guys enjoy it ;)

Dear Ezabel,

YOU GUYS ROCK!
Life just keeps getting more interesting and complicated but, continues to amaze and excite me everyday.

A lot of what I have to say I've kind of kept to myself for fear of sounding utterly ridiculous but, right now and from now on I promise I DON'T GIVE A RATS TAIL, or a FLYING FLIP!!!
I'm in a huge transitional period which I got to yack about with some really awesome people just last night.

I'm so incredibly greatful for the congregation I'm in and I don't care how many times I've said it because this alone has made a big difference in how I've handled or am currently handling a lot curveballs I've been thrown.

LESSONS LEARNED
Something else I'd like to repeat:
I can accept almost any kind of dissapointment. It's usually a bit more complicated to overcome
withouth VALID explaination.

FYI
An outrageous surge of emotion does NOT do any of the following:
-Equal an explaination
- Add to the validity of whatever one argues in that surge of emotion.
An outrageous surge of emotion DOES however:
-Reveal a lot about ones level of maturity (no mater how mature one may be in other matters)

-Really good people can make really BAD calls in JUDGEMENT.

I'm excited that I am doing the things I'm doing, personally and on a spiritual level. One by one I'm getting to all my major goals.
I'm really appreciating the recent articles discussing what whole hearted service REALLY is (not lables), and how and why we get discouraged as well as how Jehovah sees all our efforts and knows the motivation behind them.

Recently having heard a lot of various trying experiences from different friends helped me have a much more balanced perception of how I reach for my goals.

It's a real privilege to serve in any number of the many responsibilities we can reach out to obtain...I was glad that the recent Watchtower article mentioned not feeling we are superior because we can serve in a capacity that a fellow Christian can't, we all have different circumstances (some of which we don't feel like standing on a podium and announcing to the world). These are privileges NOT status symbols or a way to measure/judge anyone. It was even more encouraging to know we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves if Jehovah loves us and accepts our service as long as it's wholehearted.

*****THINGS YOU PROBABLY DON'T KNOW****

When I was about five the closest thing to parents that I had, my aunt and uncle who lived with my family moved to Florida, that was really hard for me.

Well my aunt who's been pioneering for 20+ years moved back here and has been and continues to be a lot of positive reinforcement for me. My aunt is so intelligent, so experienced, and practical and she's EXACTLY what I need.

My journal GONE explained about as far as I care to discuss loosing a friend or any friends...IT STINKS!*

I will NEVER go where I'm not invited, and I'll NEVER ASSUME I'm invited somewhere.

I'll NEVER go where I'm not wanted (which actually slightly different from above).
Two very easy ways to get rid of me are LYING to ME (period)- However especially about something I know as fact, I have excellent perceptive skills as well as shockingly accurate recall.

KICKING ME WHEN I'M DOWN-
If I'm already feeling bad about an issue I don't need to be interrogated like a criminal, I probably just need a listening ear and an "I don't know what to say", or "That's pretty heavy but, I'm here for ya."

-Assuming something about me and never asking me yourself, you can ask me I don't bite.

-I LUV to dance don't care if people think I can or not.
-I LUV to sing it makes me feel so much better whenever anything goes wrong.
I LUV to Talk- I started out quiet as a baby/toddler but, something happend and now they can't shut me up.
-On the other hand, if there's nothing to talk about or I'm possibly with quiet or boring people I wont be generous with my words. I don't talk just to hear the sound of my own voice.
-I get chatty with people I REALLY REALLY think are great/have things in common with/or think they'll appreciate what I have to say.

-My wheels are always turning_
I don't have to always be right.
I almost prefer to be wrong (and am the first to admit it). Many times when I'm right it's about things that have hurt me and why they shouldn't have happened.
-I'm constantly double checking to make sure my reasoning is the way it should be and in harmony with the only One who really matters.

-I like to make people laugh. Sometimes I do it unintentionally but, there's nothing better than seeing your friends face light up with a really genuine smile and know you put it there.

-I'll NEVER INTENTIONALLY IGNORE ANYONE- I've got a horrible shy streak with people whom I haven't had enough "Getting to Know You Time"

I get nervous that: I shouldn't approach them, there won't be enough to talk about, they really won't have time for me and I'll be intruding.

-I Try really hard to NOT exclude anyone when I plan things.
-I sometimes don't invite people if I think they might not think it'll be fun (who's coming/popularity contest) or if it's someone I've already exhausted myself trying to include them in other things.

-I LUV to dress well- I don't spend a lot on my overall wardrobe. I totally am not ashamed to hit up chain/bargain retail stores, non-popular boutiques,consignment shops ANYWHERE I FIND SOMETHING I LIKE.

-I NEVER try to look better than anyone else just the best I can for myself...ALYSSA totally knows about this "He looks good for himself!" LOL!!!

**HOW YOU INSPIRE ME/ THE WAYS YOU REMIND ME**

EZABEL

Ian just get outta here I have WAAAAAAY too much fun on here, and have met too many people that just knock my socks off!

While it's true I don't know everyone on here, what I know so far about those of you I have met makes me feel like I know you *WELL ENOUGH* to say EVERYONE here that I "know" in even the most relative sense are...effortlessly some of the most amazing people that I'm so much more than fortunate to know!

It's no exaggeration for me to say that a lot of my inspiration recently comes from eZabel in various ways.

***NAME ASSOCIATION/ I Think Of you When***

Chris Isaak- Wicked Game- Matt

Sheryl Crowe-Everyday is a Winding Road- Steph Most original/unlike anyone else/most creative.

Outkast-Hey Ya-Me/Frankie This will always be our theme =)

***Your Celebrity (or other) Counterpart*****

Kellie Martin-Alyssa- Sensitive/ sweet

Ian -Kuala Bear
Ian & Mikayla-Prom King & Queen-
Smart, witty,sweet, loving. Perfect compliments/completements

Mike- Class Clown- Most accessible, genuine, everyones buddy but, would be the most amazing best friend to anyone.

Katie- We've only got to chat a few times but, you're very sweet and definately level headed (cool under fire-marshmellow fire to be specific ;)

Brian- Kevin James-Bold/Confident yet NOT ARROGANT

Kamila-Definatley exotic with your own original flavor. (awww man now I'm hungry and want to try Polish food, lol!!!)

Kiersten- Strong/real/special kind of friend you only find once in a lifetime-honest

Gina-Wisdom beyond years/ internal beauty that radiates to external beauty, smart, fun, FUNNY-SOOO much fun to yak w

Forrest- Generous/loving accessible/warm/ Unconfined always extending.

Matt- Intelligent,Creative,Talented, Funny (very),Intriguing

Todd- Pleasant

Liveia-Chameleon (master of many (but not all) trades, honest, giving, loving, creative, fun, constantly adapting, NEVER ACCEPTING DEFEAT.

****HONORABLE MENTIONS 4 BEST FIRST IMPRESSIONS***

Alex- So cool & laid back, not at all conceited.
Monsoor (you HUSH if I spelled it wrong)-Very sweet, extremely friendly, definatley a funny guy 5 stars lol!
Dan G You sound like waaaaaay too much fun, if you roller blade I'll just drop dead.

****RANDOMLY RIDICULOUS****
For me music is connected with almost everything I do. Driving to the meetings, to a friends house, to the store...it's serious.

Since I was about twelve I luved the song Run Away by Real McCoy. For some unexplained reason I started to imagine that deep funky voice in the background is secretly Matt Kelly, I'm not making this up so everytime I hear this (and I hear it often 'cause I bought a party mix that has it) I start giggling uncontrollably.

So about a year or so ago a good friend of mine and I decided we LUVED the song Excuse Me Miss by Jay Z- Featuring Pharrell. Honestly I am not Rap or R&B girl however, the song is HOT and it also cracks me up but there's a catch...
Once again for some unexplained notion I keep imagining Alex in the music video for this sportin' a Fedora, pimp cane, and a slick pinstripe suit. HE's SOOOOO COOOL PEOPLE I SWEAR plus it's a HOT song sooooo it's not THAT crazy.(shut up Mike)

***COMING ATTRACTIONS***
I'll probably ezmsg anything real important-invites.

On a lighter note I just got cracking on my docudrama Young America: High School Revisited, my new laptop is FANCY (supposed to sound gehtto- i know, I know, I still can't say stuff like this)

This is fairly exciting, a few people I worked on with it want to get re-shot or add things so that's pretty great! 9/18/06

I'm definately going to be rollin' out the hits now, I mourn my pc but, it'll get fixed eventually.

Music videos are my new muse I'm going to start to make videos to songs I like. Not like remakes, the videos I would imagine *own original concepts* for different songs.

In the cue:
Ballad for Dead Friends - Dashboard Prophets 9/18/06-this concept came to me Saturday while I was cleaning and moving furniture, lol I know so weird =D

All is Full of Love- Bjork
Had this concept for a while, should be pretty intense.

INTERVIEWS:
The documentary Young America: High School Revisited is currently on the cutting room floor ( editing the footage up until now.
If anyone wants to put their two cents in (be interviewed) for it before I complete it ez msg /IM/call or txt me :) 9/26/06

10/3/2006
BOLD NEW TRENDZ
I've never really been into the major trends if into any at all. I decided to bravely go where no Livy had gone...First severely CHOPPED LOCKS SATURDAY then Bearing RUBY RED LIPS, PINCURLS & Faux antique lace SUNDAY.

Friendly Faces In New Places 10/9/06 9:30pm
I met some really sweet sisters from Gillette (Spanish)they're actually two fleshly sisters we bonded over loving the old classic looks like my faux antiqued lace and one of them had this adorable "school house" or "librarian" type dress with really long pearls.

We're definately hanging this winter, they told me come visit and we could do something after. Maybe these will be my new ski bunny buddies as I once again attempt to learn how to snowboard =)
Well see...

My friends daughter is such a little dream, her name is Isha (see refrence bible)

AT THE CHATEAU
This bridge was my favorite I really wanted to take a picture on it.
Still have to get the rest of the pictures developed from my other camera.

While I was working earlier this song The World I Know started playing that takes me back ages, I forgot hom much I luv Collective Soul =) 10/9/06

BRITISH INVASION
Apparently I secretly aspire to be British (ewe I hope not like Madonna with her ever evolving accent)

I messed with a copy of Modern English's - Melt With You-
I don't necessarily think anything of it, just had fun making it ;)
So have fun cracking up @ my expense...really I don't mind.

AUDIO
10/12/2006

http://www.zshare.net/audio/newmeltxa1-wav-3e6.html

UPDATE:YES THIS IS REALLY ME AND YES I'M A KORNBALL LOL!!!!

NEW STUFF-10/22/2006 For a while now I've been doing these things I call REEL SHORTS, here's one I threw together while my back is out of commision =(

It's been killing me for like 3 days (technically months on and off)
so, IM me or gimme a call, I'm bored stiff,literally =(

GRRRRRRR got invited rollerblading and couldn't go because my lower back feels like I gave birth to triplets, hurts so baaaaaaad I'm nauseous.

Anywayze every once and a blue moon I get especially girly and fantasize that I have my own show...this is the result

http://www.zshare.net/video/jane-mpg.html

MUAH LUV Y'ALL =)

*But is sometimes very necessary (Matt 18:7-9)