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by gilbert
· Dec 2, 2002 · 275 views · Journal

Last nite i had the privelege of crying myslf to sleep. And right now i have the urge to cry also. I have never been so alone in my life. I feel so intensely empty, so broken and shattered, so dead. My soul is bruised and parched, hungry and tired. I'm dying here. What more will it take to complete this bitter trip?

Second day, i'm feeling the most lonliness i ever have felt, I pray to God to end this messed up train ride...I trust, i do, I wait on Jah, but the wait is so painful...I know he will save my before i fully die...

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34 Comments

magnum #1 magnumOG 2001

ill give the humorous happy reply, go watch spongebob! and snowboarding season is here CHEER UP! ok someone do the real life been there done that reply :/

ekulu #1.1 ekuluOG 2002

who lives in a pineapple under the sea?

punkprincess #1.1.1 punkprincessOG 2001

SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS!

malibu #1.1.1.1 malibuOG 2001

absorbant, and yellow, and porous is he!

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crazygirlOG 2001

SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS!

flyingfree1125 #2 flyingfree1125OG 2001

his nautical nonsense is something you wish!

ekulu #2.1 ekuluOG 2002

so drop on the deck and flop like a fish!

flyingfree1125 #2.1.1 flyingfree1125OG 2001

SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!

cerbrato #3 cerbratoOG 2002

WHO THE HEEZE IS GILBERT?

delliott101 #3.1 delliott101OG 2002

Yeah, who is Gilbert?

skaorsk8 #3.1.1 skaorsk8OG 2002

and why are they so sad?

ok4now #3.1.1.1 ok4nowOG 2002

someone's eating his grape.

beachbum beachbumOG 2002

wow, you guys are a real sympathetic bunch.

ekulu ekuluOG 2002

I LOVE THAT MOVIE!

thatdarngirl #4 thatdarngirlOG 2002

Why does it matter who this person is? Crying to sleep is the worst I think because it shows in the morning (at least my eyes do). I think it's very comforting though, and don't be mad about crying. I think crying is one of the best releases for emotions.

thefunkyfresh #4.1 thefunkyfreshFounder

i totally agree. there's nothing like a good cry, at least that's what mike tells me

rocksupastar #4.1.1 rocksupastarFounder

the only time ive said that is after i beat the crap outta you... i say, matt... its ok to cry...

seit2see #4.2 seit2seeOG 2002

actually passing gas is top of the for releases of emotion, a close second is crying.

thefunkyfresh #4.2.1 thefunkyfreshFounder

hahaha, how true

punkprincess #4.2.2 punkprincessOG 2001

HAHAHAHAHA! that actually made me laugh out loud.... a release of emotion-.... hahahahaha so gross! hahahaha

flyingfree1125 #4.3 flyingfree1125OG 2001

ur not the only one my eyes get really heavy and red and weird of course ive only seen them like that once.

punkprincess #4.4 punkprincessOG 2001

so true- there are two things that get my emotions out... crying to a great sob movie- or singing/screaming at the top of my lungs to a dashboard song... seriously it releases some type of wonderful ....err...release... uh.. yea... lol

malibu #4.5 malibuOG 2001

whenever i say my long prayer at night, i usually end up crying myself to sleep. then in the morning i can't always remember if i properly closed the prayer or half the time i don't remember what i prayed about because it just makes me better. i used to feel bad about it like why would you cry when you pray? but jesus bled so i feel its ok to cry about anything you feel necessary. good people will help you back up.

thatdarngirl #4.5.1 thatdarngirlOG 2002

I end up crying half the time when I pray too..and sometimes I feel silly for it but if you think about it, it can be very emotional. Just think about who you're talking to when you're praying.

ilikebirds #5 ilikebirdsOG 2002

i find that rubbing ones belly while singing " we are the world" releases tension.

skaorsk8 #5.1 skaorsk8OG 2002

i like "the man in the mirror" by michael jackson...while holding hands with thai's pet monkey

ekulu #5.1.1 ekuluOG 2002

thai is his pet monkey

iwz #5.2 iwz

HAHAH we are the world. great reference. i can only think of stevie wonder

deanh77 #5.2.1 deanh77Founder

thai does a great stevie wonder impression. you have to hit him on the back of the head with a frying pan a few times to get the full effect, but its worth the physical exertion.

When he's screaming, "ow ow! I can't see! I'm blind!" You almost want to cry with joy at how accurate his mimicry is.

ilikebirds #5.2.2 ilikebirdsOG 2002

it's also a reference at how big my belly is. Seeing as how it's so large I use "we" to personify my belly. So while rubbing it i state that me and my belly are "the world" thus and henceforth thereafter the furthermore.

ilikebirds #5.2.2.1 ilikebirdsOG 2002

that should be a band name " Thereafter Henceforth Futhermore"

skaorsk8 skaorsk8OG 2002

i think a good band name would be "thai ty and the stevie wonder cry"

krispykritter #6 krispykritterOG 2002

i did the same thing everynight, for 4 years straight. i know how ya', feel, but of course i don't cause i'm not you. but if you have jehovah, you're not alone. i feel lonely a lot too. i often feel abandoned (spelling?) but that's when i realize i have to be friends with myself, i know it sounds dumb, and NO i'm not skitzofrantic (spelling, again?). exercise works great, because it releases endolphins (did that one on porpus (ha! get it , dolphins, porpuses, ok)). and too, as the circuit overseer says! read, read, read!! when i feel horrible, i go up to my cave and my heated blanket and read a watchtower or awake magazine, cause it's easier reading, so i can get into it in my weekend state. it'll get better, it'll still be hard, plenty hard, but there's a hope for a great future with jehovah.

ok4now #6.1 ok4nowOG 2002

nice comments....mt 24:13.

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